Update

6/1/25

Do you ever feel like you are hiding something from someone you love? This is mostly the question on my mind for me to think that both parties such as, Mom and I. We recently started noticing ourselves become distant because of my choices and my bipolar ways. Not to mention I’m schizophrenic so that also has a lot to do with me being so odd and not as humble as I’d portray in a good mood. I do not know why I keep seeing my face and notice a change, and there I go becoming the monster. I expressed this to my father, he said ‘he’ll find a solution for me and that I’d have to sign a document for him.” I declined in my thought at first because why would I have to give up something that helps with my depression and keeps me motivated. The interesting part is I have tried all sorts of diet pills, uppers, and vitamins, and still nothing of those such help me. I get desperate and want to call mom, but in my head, I know I am of age where I can find a solution for this. Then I notice I am abusing substances if I keep this on. I haven’t admitted this to anyone but this blog. My viewers you all keep me connected to projecting awareness to people. I have yet to get hired on a job, my bank account is going to bills, and yet all this I have been noticing myself age more with stress. Have all the sudden used substances to cope with these obstacles…I feel as if I cannot stay awake without it…Let me know what you all think ginaanthony1992@outlook.com.

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